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HEY GUYS I AM MOVING OVER TO TUMBLR BECAUSE I REALISE THAT I AM COMPLETELY UNABLE TO POST LONG POSTS, AND MICROBLOGGING FITS ME, AND I CAN POST PICTURES EASILY AND FAST [HAHA DSLR FTW] SO YEAH, THANKS WORDPRESS YOU HAVE BEEN GREAT, THANKS TO THE FEW OF YOU WHO READ MY BLOG, THOUGH I DON’T REALLY KNOW WHO YOU ARE EXACTLY, BUT THANKS ANYWAY. OKAY, MOVING TIME!

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Accidentally placed myself into recovery mode after sleeping for 8 hours yesterday, so I feel terribly tired now, while my body slowly tries to recover the hours of sleep lost over the past week or so. My nose somehow screwed itself up too, after staying in the lab for about 5 hours playing N ._. yeahh. So I can’t stop sneezing, and I want to sleep, so I’m kind of in a situation right now. haha.

Mm got my books today, will start reading lit books / mugging my Maths today hehehe. Reading Stand Alone first, starting with SingLit, maybe because I don’t really know what to expect from the rest haha.

Kay bye~

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Train is really good.

Am going to sleep early tonight, for once. … somehow my definition of early has changed.

Goodnight people

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But they no longer sell the apple gummies I loved so much.

In all my life, I’ve only seen my dad cry 3 times.

The first time, it happened when I was very young. I can’t remember what happened, but my dad got really angry. He was shouting at my brother and mom, while I sat, hidden on the staircase. He left the house for 2 hours. I was really really scared.

The second time, I was in primary school. He was disappointed with me, for what reason I can’t really remember. He was sitting next to my mattress. And he cried. I felt really really bad.

But today was the first time I saw him cry tears of joy. And I’m really really happy.

Happy birthday Dad, you’re 50 years young <3

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<3 starbucks.

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//EDIT: I hate it how I always come up with a list of guitar songs I MUST LEARN while listening to the radio, and the moment I turn on my computer, the list disappears. AH D:

Friday,
I went to celebrate Nicole’s birthday! It was really fun, actually felt like the holidays. Ice skating at kallang, which was great! Loved it, even though it was my second time ice skating Fell once, went too fast :/ yeahh. Lunch at somerset, followed by new moon at vivo. Honestly, not as bad as I expected it to be ._. Plot was still super super confusing, didn’t get much of it, but the effects were great I guess. I engaged in meaningful conversations with nicole [mostly about her poohbear -.-] but yeah, it was okay. Walked around vivo’s skyroof for a bit, managed to keep my pants dry Rushed over to TLL right after that, made it in time

Yesterday,
Went over to Rachel’s place to celebrate her brother’s birthday xD 2 hours of bolt + lunch [SATAY<3] , 2 hours of Tai Di and Cheat [first time in a year, I don't really like card games, but I had nothing better to do! I won most of the games anyway ._.] about an hour or so of guitarring + chatting It was fun. haha. Took the bus home with yu han (primary 6 from NYPS, going to mayflower next year, REALLY CUTE, lives opposite thomson plaza!) and mel [who lives near j8, sec 2 nygh, apparently I played OMGPOP with her before xD] sort of got lost for a bit, but found out busstop, and found our dearest 52. haha. but yeah, chinese checkers on the bus, made me really dizzy, I lost [DESPITE TOTALLY BEING AHEAD IN THE FIRST FEW TURNS D:] quite badly, but yeah, it was really fun(: haha.

Today,
sleeping at 4am, left with alot of things to think about in my head, and feeling really really bad. Oh and happy birthday nicole! 14 years old arh. HAHA. i'll be 15 in a month ;P SO SAVOUR THE MOMENT BEFORE ITS GONE HAHA.

Oh and if you [not nicole, someone else] do read my blog [I'm not really sure if you do xDD], thanks for everything, and sorry for being so annoying ._. that's all I would say I guess, sun's coming up in 3 hours time, better catch some zzz's.

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I shall sleep before 1 tonight Waking up early tomorrow to rushover to kallang to celebrate nicole’s birthday! haha. Yeah that’s about it, short post.

Tonight made me worry. And made me realize what I’ve been doing wrong. Sigh.

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//EDIT : 1.43 a.m. EPIC PHAIL

“Why isn’t anyone listening to what I’m saying? I want to talk to Mommy and Daddy.”

Fireworks show at Vivo was awesome. Loved how everything was so well synchronized with the music and how well the fireworks lit up the night sky with the beautifully planned splashes of colour. I took nice photos too Not a huge fan of the large cloud of smoke it left behind, so sorry mother earth, we have failed you.

December holidays aren’t as great as they were supposed to be! Alot of people seem to be troubled and all, so here’s a quick CHEER UP! The holidays don’t have to be this hard!

I’m not going to post alot, this would be my 6th day staying up till 2 am, so chao

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I’m sorry. For not being totally honest. For keeping quiet way too often. For not doing anything. For being so cowardly. For not taking initiative. For everything. I really am.

It’s been quite a while since we’ve last talked. I was delighted when you asked me over, because I miss you, so very much. I miss the magical evenings spent on the table in the void deck, watching the world around us transform as the sun went to sleep. I miss the long and meaningful discussions we had, and also the moments spent in silence, and I apologise again, for not being able to keep the conversation going most of the time. But more importantly, I miss you, everything about you. The way you’re able to carve the most beautiful images from thin air, just by the words you say. The way you make things clear for yourself, and how you put things in such a positive light (at times). The way you’re so honest with your feelings, and so willing to share. and so, so much more.

I could tell that something was different when we talked. I know you’ve gotten used to talking to others whose replies are actually comparable to your own, and I’m sorry for not being able to … keep up. It must have taken alot of effort, to kill the silence by coming up with topics on the spot, thank you, so much. It meant a lot to me. And you’ve changed quite a bit too, huh. Over the course of a few weeks, you’ve grown… wiser. Either that or I’ve just never heard your (detailed) plans for the future. But any way, to know that I had been away long enough for me to notice really… hit me. But i know i’ve already told you this.

It hurts to notice that things have changed between us. I’m sorry I have never mentioned this before, I didn’t dare, for I didn’t want to accept the truth. We haven’t been talking as much as we did in the past. I don’t know if it was the lack of time for each other, or the general effect the passing of time has on everything. I try, and i know you try, to keep this friendship alive, and not to let it die out just like that, but things happen and schedules clash, and our friendship’s affected. I’m sorry  if you have to put up with someone like me, just because you said you won’t let our friendship get affected, and I’m really really grateful to know that you’re trying. I’m sorry if I haven’t been doing such a good job in returning the favour, but i really hope you haven’t given up on me.

But I guess what I just want to say, is that

. They say a picture paints a thousand words. But all I really need now is three. You are the greatest, greatest friend I have ever had, and you have been the one that has made my sec 2 life worth living. I want you to know that I still love you, and I’ve never stopped loving you, not one bit. I’m really thankful to have had a friend as close as you, and I really miss our friendship. I want you to know that I still care, no matter what, and that I’ll always be here for you, to lend a ear or a shoulder, if you need me to be. And even if you decide to move on, it’s okay. All I need to know is that you are happy, and I will be happy with whatever I have to do to ensure that. I know you have other friends that fit your criteria, and I’m not going to force you into a decision. I’m willing to put in my all to rebuild our friendship, if you are fine with me doing it. I hope that you would still be reading this blog, and if you are reading this, please , please let me know.

I still love you.

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Slept for 3 hours last night, Bot is… doing fine I guess. Ball sensing still has it’s problems, and we did break our only New IR ball, sooo we would have to cross our fingers hands toes feet legs ears hair and prayyy that everything would be fine tomorrow, and that we actually have a chance of winning the other… 3 competitors [2, considering one is our lovely JC team] and getting a prize. We smoked quite well during the interview, the judges seeeemed impressed. Hopefully we would be going to SINGAPORE [god the mood just isn't there when it's in your own territory.] for world finals next year. Met a lot of people at SP today, I love how everyone in robocup is so friendly … Maybe because 90% of everyone there is coached by Alex [BUT WE ARENT HAHA dignified people manzx], but yeah. Ohh 2 members of my dearest 5N are in robotics, never knew that. I LOVE 5N <3 even if they can't remember my name, they would still make an effort to scream SQUEEZE and tackle me whenever they see me. … aww.

Robocup officially starts tomorrow, the stress is there, even though we are fighting only… 3 teams. Soccer B is very unpopular. But still, I know we can do it, we've tried out best. No matter how PMS the bot's progress is, and how the bot is never able to stay awesome for more than a day, we will get pass this challenges and hopefully get into Worlds. we deserve it.

On a side note, I stepped on a snail during my desperate dash for the safety of my mother's car [even after 2 years and countless stayovers in HC, I still can't get over the fact that every school is haunted, and really scary [but very beautiful and peaceful!] at night.]. It left the world with a crunch. I'm so sorry. [Fine, they do crunch.]

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